in order to make life fast, you have to slow the pace sometimes

i do try not to cry, not to spoil each second i get to have while he is still here... i know it, i'll miss it the most so i have to make it worth remembering... even if the story didnt end like how a walt disney fairy tale is made, at least i get to have a story which is worth remembering and happy somewhere in the beginning, middle and end... :)

did i tell u i have seen eat pray and love with my girls? its been fun... but wot's weird is, i dont get to chuckle like them now, not as lively as i have been... in my mind, i mock every teeny weeny wishful idea the movie gives every girl that you can find yourself in bali or somewhere... i thought tho, julia roberts was having a hard time looking for herself in america (her own country), how much more finding it in other places... as andrew would say, 'u sound like my dad now'... i dunno if thats a good thing... told him 'its your fault i think like a man now and i mock in my silent mouth and loud thought every girly thing thats happening around me!' ....

so far my girlfriends didnt know i am not really a very romantic kinda girl, yeah i do love notting hill, but sometimes, corny movies makes my day as rotten as mold... i dunno... maybe because me and andrew's anticipatition of goodbyes... its tough, its hard, and its pressuring....