when do u know it's time to let go?

i pondered and have been on my sub zero feeling... u know i keep doubting... every fucking corniest movie makes me cry, hence the bridget jones... i really wondered wot happened to pandora when she opened the box... they said she cried acid... but has she moved on? i have been in my stalker mode and have been stalking the boyf's ex, havent found really much... dont u hate your boyf's ex's... i mean, i dont hate the person (well maybe a little) but u know, how they still try to cling on your boyf even they know that theres a new girlf now... the fact i hate the most is when the boyf still entertains really being part of her life being an adviser and all and he tells u, they just care (obviously)... i let it pass first couple of months... i mean, my exes are still my friends but i dont confide with them and all to be pitied or looking for tea and sympathy... i mean, i tried really not to feel bad, but it makes me feel bad... :( u know this woman instinct? most of mine turned out to be right... its scaring me... coz they never go away in my mind... oh yes, i pretend like i havent been bothered with stuff... but sometimes, i lay there, think and still i feel something is not right... i hate when im in stalking mode, because i always find something that makes me feel worse, i really extended my stalking mode (due to my alone lonely loner feeling), and saw pix with the ex with the exgirlf in his siblings albums... and seeing it, he looked so happy... and then i viewed my pictures with him... and made me cry... and i thought, maybe i never made him happy like she did... maybe he does loves me but, just cant make him laugh the way she did... maybe, just maybe, she did love her and maybe just didnt want to admit it on my face... or maybe... maybe... i have been fooling myself all along...

in my life, ive loved, unconditionally, indefinitelly and wholly... never left myself anything except self respect... all given always to someone i choose to... unluckily, it always makes me feel hallowed... so when the time i feel it slippin away... i have no one to blame except me for giving it all out... because at all times, i always think, if and only if this man turned out to be the one i have to spend my life with, at least he knows i never held back and gave it all... some people hesitates... i hope im like one... but then i thought, i reckon its better to risk and lived it all, than always stay safe and not lived at all...

so tell me? what's the craziest thing youve done for your partner?

with mine, turning my back to the one i love so much with so much pain in my heart knowing i will never be the same person again... a dreamer...